The Journal of J

Was sitting down in front of the computer today, and started to think about some old friends I had. Friendships, though precious and important, get eroded by time easily. I remember my best friend gang cenpen, back in secondary school. Now, 5yrs later, I don't even know what are they doing now(school or working?) or even which part of the globe are they now(where are you kong?). Its nostalgic to think of the past, to think we did everything for each other everyday. But now, we cant even meet up once a year. Its nobody's fault, can only blame time. I still think of them sometimes, hoping that we could get together and talk about old times.

Talking about forgotten friendships, I had this friend since primary school. Unfortunately, we fell out due to a totally childish blog incident. He didnt know this, but I had kept this email all these time(not lazy clear inbox, is purposely keep ok)

Halo,think it has been quite a while since tt 'tag msg in ur blog' incident.z.. Dun noe bout u,but plz dun think i very bo chap.Just tt prelims now i dun wanna bother myself much with other matters for time being.From ur nicks,sorta think tt u very dulan by wad's happening ard u recently.Watever it is,just bear with it for the time being ba,n everything will be over soon.z Perhaps many ppll stressed out by prelims, o lvl n stuffs like tt.

Chill out.....

From:forever nt funny --

Whenever I see this email now, I feel kinda sad that things had to turn out this way. There was also a recent dota incident, which he said something hurtful. He probably didn't sense it, but it made me feel unimportant and useless. No elaboration on what happened, just felt that perhaps our friendship really cannot put up with the test of time.

On another note, I had this other friend since secondary school. Its amazing how we got to know each other through an online game, and end up being friends for many years later. However, recently, some bad incident over msn happened again, and the ending is much predictable. If you cherish a friendship, you should be sensitive to topics and tone.

Me: heyy
JK: hi
Me: $%^#&$%&$&$%&??
JK: no

I'm so sick of one word conversations, if you don't wanna talk, you could simply not reply. After purposely chatting in a bad attitude, don't pretend that you care about this friendship, act like your style had been like this all along. It could have been my selfishness that made you miserable. If you are reading this now, I want to tell you that you had been a special friend to me. I'm sorry that you didnt feel it, that you treated our friendship like trash.

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Fortunately, I still have my bestest friend sophia. Even though she is not in Singapore now, our friendship is strong enough as proven these few years. You don't need alot of friends, you just need ONE who understands you inside out, whom you can call to talk when you are down.

Of course, I still have my fantastic family, who had been there with me through my bad experiences(will post one on my bad interview soon). I am lucky to be in this world with my bestest friend, my family, my baobei. Don't wait till its too late, before starting to salvage friendships/relationships. Some broken things cannot be mended.